gplash1958's Journal
Well, after a struggling week at my sister's house in Maryland, did I gain or lose? Tomorrow will tell. I thought I was doing so well, toting my scale with me to Maryland, only to leave it behind. Had to go out today and buy a new scale. What if it is not calibrated like my old one? Today was a struggle. I was so hungry all day, even though I ate breakfast and tried to be good. I had too many snacks. Didn't even put them in my tracker...why let the world see I was cheating? I know I did!!! It is hard being in the company of a 2 year old all day....I am worn out!!! Not to mention the two long eight hour drives I endured in a period of 9 days!!! No energy to try to exercise, although we did take a short walk yesterday. Well maybe it will go more smoothly this next 7 days!!
Here it is everyone, April 19, 2007. THE weigh-in. So, I stepped on the scale, ever so slowly with one eye closed and the other half-open. Had my falling off the wagon gotten the best of me? Did the scale creep back up? Well, it was time to open both eyes and look. Good!! Still at about 10 pounds lost. I really think it was a lot of water weight and me drinking 8 glasses of water a day, flushing out all the toxins in my system. Of course, with my size, 10 pounds lost does not show a bit. My jeans aren't even getting loose yet--well not in the waist, but the seat is getting a little saggy. This was a difficult 10 days. Can I really make it to July 2?????????? Only time will tell.
Well, it was a hard weekend...I had to have those butter cookies, and then ate them all in two days. Better to do that than to have them sit around for a week. So I got rid of them.......into my stomach. But surprisingly, the scale moved a notch---DOWN---by Monday morning. Phew!!! Saved by the scale!! I have found that if I do not have the temptations in the pantry, that I won't be craving them. So no more cookies--unless I can buy a single serve pack and not a crumb more. Those Wheat Thins crackers sound healthy--but not when you want to eat them all.....
I cleaned out the freezer, refrigerator and pantry today. I removed all the food, threw some away, gave some to my son, wiped all the shelves and side walls of both compartments, and refilled with what I had left over. Up and down, and up and down......bend over, reach up. Vacuum and mop the floor.....think I got enough exercise? Maybe I will complete my workout with a few crunches, leg lifts and toe touches. Still have to finish laundry, clean the bathrooms, and my bedroom. This is all a prelude to my going to Maryland on Saturday for ten days. I hate to leave a messy or untidy house. I am keeping my food supplies low, finishing out the week, so I do not have any spoiled food when I get back.
Oh, I am a very bad stress/emotional eater, and with my daughter leaving with the National Guard on Friday, I am very stressed. So I do have to keep myself busy so as not to console myself with FOOD!!!! Well at least she is not going to Iraq. Just to the US/Mexican border in Arizona, to protect our country from all the illegal immigrants and Drug Runners trying to infiltrate our land. Actually,that could be just as dangerous as the warzone in Iraq.
Prayers Welcome...............
See you at the weigh-in tomorrow!!
Well, I finally got out for my walk today. I went 1/2 mile. Now you have to realize that I have not engaged in lengthy walking outings in a few years, as I have suffered from a disability in my left ankle. Today I decided to take the plunge, so to speak. I got on some comfortable clothes, and tennis shoes, and loaded my 2 year old granddaughter into the stroller. And away we went. Up the hill(about a 1% grade), against the wind, pushing a stroller was one hell of a workout for me. Then, along Hwy 17 with all the cars racing by, I had to push the stroller in the grass and dirt, as there is no shoulder on that part of Hwy 17. Then we went down the road on the other side of my complex. Thank goodness this part was easy--all down hill. Then across the parking lot to my car. Phew was I feeling it!!! I put my granddaughter in the carseat and then got in the driver's seat. I felt I had walked ten miles, but I was going to measure it with the odometer--0.5 miles was all it clocked!! Dang....maybe I can work up to a few times around the block--but with out the stroller!
Well, day two of the Steeple Fit Club and I am feeling pretty good. I documented my food intake today and actually came out within all my quotas!! I did some crunches and some leg lifts. My!! those muscles were hurting. It's been a long time since I did any exercise. Going to try again. I want to get outside and walk, but the weather is just not holding up. Maybe this weekend coming will be nice.
Something sweet would still be nice----but I did have 1/4 of a Heshey's Special Dark Candy Bar. Just sweet enough and rich enough to satisfy my craving. But can't they make a Diet Krispy Kreme Donut??????? Maybe one day.........when I am dead and gone!!
Onto Day Three!!
Well, here we are at the end of the day. All I can think about is I want something sweet. I had some fruit, but it just isn't that hot Krispy Kreme Donut. I want something crunchy and salty...celery with salsa had to do. Tasted a bit like a Bloody Mary...............a virgin Bloody Mary. Exercise? What exercise? It was too cold to go walk around the block.....but I did get in a good 45 minutes walking in the grocery store. Went from the front to the back to the front and oops....I forgot ziploc bags..........so back to the back again. Then finally to the checkout. Was that enough exercise? All I can say it is going to take a miracle to get through this......and to change my lifestyle. Portion control is another hurdle. What is supposed to be one serving, looks like a baby size portion.........how in the world is that going to fill me up? Ahhhhhh, but the point is, not to fill up. Eat in moderation, let the stomach shrink, and I will feel full without gorging myself.
What will tomorrow bring???????
First off, let's not call it a diet!!! If we just rethink our eating patterns and choose healthy foods, it is not a diet. Dieting makes me think of starving myself, then when the weight is gone, going back to my old way of eating. We are striving to get FIT, not skinny. Well maybe a little thinner. But when you hit the 40's, it gets much harder to take off what you have eaten all these years. And if your weight gain was caused or helped along by various medications that have a side effect of weight gain, you are well on your way to really tipping the scales. So what do you do? Do you go cold turkey off the meds, and hope your health does not spiral downhill? Do you starve yourself? Do you become an exercise fanatic? Wait!! Can't do that when you are wrought with arthritis and various orthopedic problems. Well thank goodness the warm weather is just around the corner, and swimming will be the exercise of choice--if I can make that one lap to the end of the pool!! What happened to those days when I could do 20 laps in an Olympic size pool? I know!! They are lost with my youth. I better get that pain medication prescription refilled. Lord knows, this getting fit thing will cause more aches and pains than I already have.
Let me tell you, in 1991 I broke my left leg, shattering and rotating it. I needed three surgeries and had to learn how to walk all over again. That year I was dead set against gaining weight, being laid up with a broken leg. Well I really changed my eating habits and ended up losing 85 pounds that year. I kept that weight off for many years, then in the last five years, the weight came creeping back. Medication was one of the culprits, along with a more sedentary lifestyle, and lack of exercise. Now I am paying the price. But if I could lose 85 pounds in 1991, I can do it again. Maybe I need to break the other leg............or not!!
I guess what you really need to know is that I am a 48 year old mother of two adult children and grandmother of two girls. I currently weigh 280 pounds, am 5'11" with a large frame. I would like to lose about 81 pounds, putting me at the 199 mark. For my body frame and height, I would be happy with that weight.
Let's get started!!!!!